hi hi! 24 m sub here, pan.

so like... it started with my partner playfully asking me to send them money. and then i realized what turned me on was the wrongness. now i'm kind of addicted to being taken advantage of, even if it's by internet strangers. now i'm addicted to findom. >.<

it just feels so fucked up and irresponsible and dangerous. like, getting attention from people who do NOT have my best interests in mind. i like it when they don't try to pretend it's normal. acknowledging that i shouldn't, knowing that they're fucking me over and making me regret this and then doing it anyway. that's what really flusters me.

i once posted my anydesk code (PC remote control program) into a techdom discord server and someone showed up, opened notepad, asked "Do you have money? :3", blocked my input, logged into my paypal, and... huffff. i can't stop thinking about it since, even though it was so fucked up. >.<

i've had a dom do the same thing but they specifically typed in notepad that they knew this was going to fuck me over but that they'd do it anyway. it absolutely broke me (in a good way). fhdbfhjdf

this stuff to me is a lot hotter than the usual dom(me)/sub dynamic where there's some hierarchy that's implied, like calling the sub a wallet and stuff. i don't like it because it almost normalizes it, like there's some natural world order, but to me it's a lot hotter if we both know it's not true. you're just an evil person and i'm the unlucky guy whom you take from. it's NOT normal and that's what's hot.

anyway, yeah, thought it could be fun to share those experiences in a findom server and hopefully meet some like-minded peeps!