I have said no, as it  gets a lot worse than this....... So you best get used to it...... lol

yes, Mistress Bella, I am suggesting if you ever grow bored of me, you should be able to sell me if you desire to do so. And to Daddy if you wish !!

Yes. Those of us that need to be owned, are fair game to be sold.

Anything owned is a possession. Possessions should be sold if desired to whoever the owner desires.

I think we have to be a little bit realistic here.... 100 years ago, measurement of temperature was not as accurate as it is today..... And the number of locations where temperatures were recorded every day, as a matter of course, was very small compared to today..... It is also worth noting that what happened a few years ago when the tsunami struck, would have happened before, but there would have been no news coverage of it.
I knew the word tsunami, before then, so clearly they happened, but that is the first I knew of their power.

Where I live, the most extreme weather in my 41 year lifetime, occurred in 1987. 26 years ago. Not this year, or last year.....

I'm not saying the scientists are wrong, but what I am saying is that much of their science is based upon little more than a series of assumptions based upon very recent measurements.

If I had let science show me the future throughout my whole life, I would now be a very lonely guy after everyone else died of bird flu a few years back.

As you can tell, I am a sceptic !!! But I respect the views of others. I may well be wrong.

Good question!!!

I am finding things very frustrating on line as I have soooo much less control than in face to face play. I used to arrange a day or half day or hour for a face to face and I knew when it was, and most often I could dictate the content..... And as I mentioned in another post I'm someone who says I'm submissive then tries to take control.

Now, online i am finding I cannot control when I will get replies to emails or texts, when the replies will be and I'm finding it impossible to negotiate with Mistress Bella.

So.... Is it better online?

It depends what you are after. I wanted to be controlled. I wanted to have control taken away from me. I find frustration a very powerful emotion in a positive way.
However
I enjoy having a good tantrum, acting like a spoilt brat and Mistress Bella has tamed me through her strict fining policy for poor behaviour. So.... I'm no longer a brat.

Do I find it a positive that she has tamed me? I find it very frustrating...... That powerful emotion I like so much.

I'm loving it..... In all the odd ways that drive me!!!

Nigel

Quote from: iceblock on October 20, 2013, 09:34:38 AM
So mate? Did you have the balls? Does Bella have your details? I hope so!

Yes, she does have the details. It was such an awesome feeling sending them.

Mistress Bella, has not really commented on the fact she has the info, but that's not unusual, she plays her cards close to her Chest. I'm reasonably comfortable that she isn't going to go for breaking me in one go!!!!! Famous last words!!!

Nigel

And this forum helps, because until your last post, it's easy for me to feel like I'm on my own and the only person who feels that way.

I would hate the things I fantasise about when I most excited to happen for real as the consequences would be too severe..... However, I desperately ache for them to happen without the consequences!!! Which I know is not possible!!!

Thankyou

Nigel

Quote from: MistressBella on October 19, 2013, 12:46:46 PM

Quote from: Nigelpooch on October 18, 2013, 05:08:13 PM

Quote from: MistressBella on October 16, 2013, 02:59:00 AM

There's parts to this that aren't pleasurable for the slave, but there are many that are. Take the good with the bad...

I like the non pleasurable stuff as much if not more than the pleasurable..... Particularly where fines are imposed for non completion of tasks. That's what being controlled is all about. If you are just asking me to do stuff I like, who is being controlled ? Not me!!

You do like the very things that make you go into a tantrum?
You could have surprised me...LOL

Oh... I LOVE your avatar and your signature!!
It suits you... Don't you think??
It just shows you... It can be done only with in a couple minutes, and everything could be out in the open....
EVERYTHING!!!

You want to test me?
I dare YOU!!


Til Next Time Minion,
XoXoXoXo

Yes.... I want to test you.....!!!! Not sure I'm ready to though.

Whilst in reality I don't want everything out in the open, I do have a recurring fantasy where I do lose out in the blackmail game and I lose everything...... Does anyone else have that fantasy too?

I want it to stay a fantasy though!!!

I enjoy testing you. It shows you I'm brave.

And it's not the things that make me have a tantrum that I like...... It's having to do those things, even though I don't want to that excites me so much.... The realisation that I have no choice.... That's why I like blackmail so much..... Because the mind and body are capable of so much more than they think..... And it's only the lack of a choice that allows them the opportunity!!!

Quote from: MistressShannon on October 16, 2013, 02:06:37 AM
Oh, Nigel, you sick little freak. 

Thank you Mistress Shannon. X

I'm jealous I wasn't the lucky guy !!!

Quote from: MistressBella on October 16, 2013, 02:59:00 AM

There's parts to this that aren't pleasurable for the slave, but there are many that are. Take the good with the bad...

I like the non pleasurable stuff as much if not more than the pleasurable..... Particularly where fines are imposed for non completion of tasks. That's what being controlled is all about. If you are just asking me to do stuff I like, who is being controlled ? Not me!!

I have historically been a bottom that tries to take control.

I make excuses, I play guilt trips, I lie, i try to direct activity, I try to remain in control.... To drive the agenda.
I'm not sure why as it ruins my fun.

I need to be controlled. I want to be out of control...... But my weaknesses kick in too often. I need a strong, brave woman. I hope I have found her!!

Has anyone else experienced a bottom trying to top? How did you stop it?

I had been searching for someone to blackmail me for some time...... I had searched for face to face relationship and online. It was with Mistress Bella that I found what I had been searching for so long...... And I think it helps being an online relationship.

Why?

Because I cannot look into her eyes and see her weaknesses. I cannot see her frailties or uncertainties...... I don't know her..... She could be a real sadistic bitch..... But over the internet I cannot truly tell.

I want to give her all my credit card details..... I hope I have the balls to do it later tonight!!! But like I said earlier, I cannot look her in the eyes to see her reaction to getting the info. Will she ruin me? Will she toy with me?

Online blackmail is soooo powerful. I recommend it highly!!!

I know what you mean about consenting...... It would have been awesome to have been blackmailed without signing a contract..... Just because Mistress Bella knows I need it!! But from Mistress Bella's perspective it makes sense to get written authority when you think that blackmail is illegal.
It does lessen the impact though...... Part of me knows I can buy myself out of the contract, which almost by definition puts me in control.
I'm enjoying it though..... And I expect it to get more fun day by day!!

I also like the idea you mentioned of forced bi. How much of a thrill it must be, to know you have to do something like that. If I had to suck a penis or get fucked up the arse, it would blow my mind... But that would involve two slaves that lived close enough to actually meet for real. If Mistress Bella was to ever blackmail you, I'm not sure you are even in the same country as you!!!

In reality I think I probably could suck cock or take a good fucking..... It's kissing another man I would really struggle with! Is that wired?

This isn't so much a fetish as a weakness!!!!

I am one of the most competitive individuals you could ever wish to meet. I will not be beaten!!!

So any game.... Any gamble is difficult to resist. The odds could be against me, but so long as they are not impossible I will give it my best.

An example is a game I used to play with a Mistress. I had to go out in my lunch hour, buy a pair of ladies knickers and wear them. I then had to give Miss a choice of four colours that I had chosen..... If Miss guessed correctly I had to pay her 20 pounds (about 30 dollars).  She would write down the colour she thought on a piece of paper and I would turn up at her house..... She would show me the paper, then I would show her the knickers I was wearing!!

It was very exciting..... We played that game lots!!

So not a fetish as such (although I enjoy wearing ladies underwear), more of an addition to challenges!!